It amazes me, the same God that answers the prayers of the woman who desperately needs help with her down syndrome baby, and creates a program that gets passed by the state to fund things for down syndrome kids, is the same God that answers the prayers of the mother who desperately wants to rely on her own efforts and not have any government dependency at all. The God that helps a coach rally his team and win a game is the same God that speaks to another that their spending too much time with sports, and helps them to direct their paths to other things.
It is such a testament to me that God lives! He loves us Individually!! He cares about what we want and what is important to each of us. The mother who home schools her kids and wants to bake bread and raise a garden, and the mother whose kids attend a private school and works in an office in the corporate world, to the mother who is PTA president participates actively in her children's school and helps other children around her. He loves us all, no matter our choices, our differences, and he helps us and leads us and answers our prayers.
He wants us to have the righteous desires of our hearts. That doesn't mean that if we wish our neighbors dog would die it'll happen, or if you dislike your kids soccer coach they'll magically get a new one. Just like the apostles, some wanted to merely be with The Lord and he told them their desires were good and they were given the desires of their hearts, and yet John desired to tarry on Earth until the Lord comes again, and the Lord told him this was a righteous desire as well. No shun, no shame in different desires. God is merciful!
We have to do our part, and we should ask him if our desires are in the right priority, but I know He cares! He loves us and He listens to us and knows our desires. It is our job to align our will with His. This is a never ending process and one I'm sure I've failed at more times than I care to admit. I've judged people for their desires as they weren't my own, and I have so far to go, I'm so far from perfect. The fact that God sees our hearts and knows them is such an amazing thing to me and makes me want to be better, to try harder and to see others as God sees them. To not compare and to let others righteous desires be theirs.
Sometimes guilty pleasures sneak up on us. Sometimes I binge watch Gilmore girls til the wee hours of the morning, sometimes I do genealogy, sometimes I'm ever so faithful to schedules and priorities, sometimes I just want to eat chocolate and pretend I'm not an adult anymore. I think that's the beauty of mortality.....experiencing it all. If we don't know pain we can't know joy. I'm ever so grateful for a Father in Heaven that loves me, that knows my heart and each of yours. The awe that fills my mind when I think about how the person that I don't see eye to eye with or that might annoy me, is loved by my Father in Heaven, is glorious! It's masterful...His plan!
